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Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Loose it

Good morning my grandchildren. Sorry for not writing to you quite a long time. You know, I had too many things to do. First of all I want to say I am pretty disappointed with the game which I play for years. The progression of the come is becoming more and more ridiculous. I do not know what's on the mind of the people who are responsible on it. Maybe it is time for me to stop playing it but if I let it go, I am letting go so many memories. I am just afraid losing my memories with the game. You know, I spent hours with my friends playing it. For sure we wont have a chance like that anymore. I miss that moment. By the way, I think I need to stop my nasty behaviour. I want to start a new life. Turn over a new leaf. It is easier to say rather than do it yet I have to try. Thanks for being with me when I am sad, happy or just to kill my time. Cannot recall how many times I have tried to loose it. I want to live as healthy as I can!!! My luck goes off and it is time to rise. I am tired of meeting you in secret, becoming a thief and cannot sleep because of it.
You just too good to be true. Cant take my eyes of you. :)

Monday, December 19, 2011

Driving alone is good

Hye my grandchildren!!!For the first time tonight I feel sleepy. Tomorrow I need to go the town. I think better I go alone because I enjoy travelling alone more than accompanied by people. You know, I do not like talking when driving because I am focusing on two things. I am focusing on driving and listening to songs. When people start to talk to me, my mood which comes from the songs gone. I need to reclaim my mood everytime after I have finished talking and that is not a good thing. Oh I am kinda easily annoyed by a type of driver. I call this type of driver "troll driver". To detect this type of driver is really easy. Imagine this. You are on a straight road without traffic lights, the weather is perfect and the condition of the road is good. So you expect a smooth driving experience aite? Teettt..You are wrong. You are hardly moving because the driver in front of you moving so slow. He is driving under the speed limit. Too slow. You cannot over take him due to incoming vehicles on the other side of the road. The situation continues for almost 15 minutes till you manage to over take him. You know, I am pretty tired of this type of driver. As if he is trolling me and says " U MAD bro?"... Whenever I succeed over take him, it is time for revenge...lulz...I drive so slow and make sure he suffers and feels what I feel. I torture him till I feel bored because driving too slow like a snail then I continue driving like a normal proper human being. So tomorrow hopefully I do not come across any troll driver.
Dear, I am so sleepy....need to sleep...You take care u thisssssssssssssss much.. XD..bye2...

Friday, December 16, 2011

Me no gentleman

Good morning. Yar...I am here to write so be prepared to read. First of all I want to clarify that I am not a sexist okay. This is just my point of view so if you have other ways of looking it,I am fine. About a week ago I went to one of the most famous cities in my country. I planned to hang out with some friends at a shopping mall. I am not used to the roads there so I took public transport which was Light Railway Train. I learnt and studied their routes carefully. Like study for exam. I had to take two trains to reach there. The first train had quite many people in it yet everything went on smoothly until I needed to take another train to the shopping mall. A problem emerged. I waited at the platform and I saw a train was approaching. O yeah as the door was opening, I saw so many people inside it. I tried to choose other couch for less people but sad to say I as a man had very little choice. Imagine like this. There are 10 couches but only 4 of them for unisex and the remains are for women. The best part was women are allowed to enter the couches for unisex but men are not permitted to enter the women couches. That is so unfair. My expression was like ~_~". What on earth they created a policy like that. If you want to be fair, then make the distribution for the couches to both sexes fairly. No more unisex couches. Just specify 5 for men and 5 for women or to be fairer, no coaches for specific sex. Just make all of them unisex coaches. Wait...Do not say anything yet. Wait for my explanation. I had to force myself to enter one of the couches for unisex and guess what? I found many women in the couches and I could see the couches for women were not so full like the unisex couches. If only I own that train service, I would ask women to fill up the couches for women first.
I learnt about gender equality and met quite many women who believe in gender equality. They fight for it. Women.If you really mean what you are fighting for, then better be fair in every aspect. You want equal treatment right? Equal rights, equal payment, no more glass escalator and what so ever. Why don't you start by asking the train service to abolish the couch policy. Fight for your sitting in the train equally like men do. Oh now you want to say for sure men have advantage because of their physical. Yeah men do have advantage in term of physical but hey,you want people to treat you equally so you have to fight for it. Women always complaining about being treated unequally but actually people are treating you equally. You want people to aid you then you will feel people are treating you equally. If you want a fair life, you do not have to seek for aids from others. Not fair. If women need aids from people then men also can seek for aids and it becomes gender inequality again. LULZ.
Oh yeah. You know the term gentleman? There is no such things as gentlewoman.Why is that?Because men are expected to treat women softer and protect them. The best part is women who fight for gender equality also use the word gentleman to men who treat them softly. In a nut shell, it means that they still long for men to treat them softer and differently. You know, if a man treat a woman just like a man treat another man even with respect like you talk to a man politely (polite here means it is polite enough for men), they won't call you gentleman. Hey where is the fairness in this situation? Why do women expect men to treat them in different manner? Why do men need to treat women more polite and softer? Funny though. If women want really want gender equality then expect no different in terms of the way of people treat women.
In my opinion, women are always behind men. Men always a leader unless there are areas or situations where men are useless like you are married to a useless man. Based on my reading, the term gender equality came from a place and era where men were jerks and useless. They abused their power and denied all the basics rights for women. That is so wrong.Women lost faith in men to let them lead. That is why women want equality in every aspect. For me I do agree in gender equality but at certain things women should not ask for gender equality. Do not fight for gender equality at things that you do not know because it turns out that you are the one who becomes unfair. LULZ. By the way I am not a gentleman. I treat women and men indifferently. If you misbehave then I treat you like you deserve regardless your sexes. You know, among things that I hate the most are men who are useless and abusive and for women is women who have no manners. Arghhh...I am so sleepy...I cannot think properly anymore.
Good night dear...Grandpa always loves you.bye2

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

You know, knowing someone new is not always a pleasure. Sometimes the new person touches your sentimental part and the memories haunt you forever. The sad part is when you have lost it and you can't do nothing about it. One day you will find it. Before the person comes into your life, you think you have everything. Then the person comes, shows you what you have been missing before this. You really hope the person will stay with you because you feel the person completes you. Yeah, then out of sudden the person leaves you. You are missing the person everyday. You do so many things to get rid of your sadness. Do not sleep at night because you will think about the person before falling to sleep. You will only sleep when you are really tired. Many people come and try to replace the person, but can't. They just do not have the X-factor. The person is the only one who can fit perfectly. You will give up thinking about your future. You will start following the flow. You will never want to lead again. Memories with the person always haunt you. You really miss the moments when you were close together. Funny because you hope the person misses you too. So you decide to stay and wait. Just follow the flow.
Do not ask me about marriage. I hate that topic. I am not a good guy. I am working on something. Good night.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Happy Birthday!!!

Happy 24th birthday to me. It is the 24th birthday. Well I guess if people who are the same age with me start to build their new life. Begin to work, establish more stable relationship and have plans for their carrier. Physically they will reach the top of their looks I mean they will look the prettiest or the most handsome in their life. Well guess what...I do not have all those. I have no job and no plans. No job = no relationship. =_=" and plus my ugly looking. So perfect combination. Right now I am stuck here. I am not complaining but I just write this down because who knows one day I need to look at this back to remind me of what I am.
This does not stop me from dreaming something big. Here is the wish list I want to do before I die.

I want to :

Get license for scuba diving

Bungee jumping

Sky diving

Visit north Korea

Not talking to anyone for 1 whole day

Drive a sedan car through a thick forest

Go to the North pole with you

Done...That is all I want...Now I am sleepy. Thanks for the wishes. I really appreciate all of them....

Friday, December 9, 2011

It is almost time

It is almost my birthday. This time I want to make something big to happen in my life. It is time to let go everything which I do not need in my future. I have to stop my bad habits before they become permanent in my life. Starting things is always easier than stopping them. I was so stupid and weak. Give me the meaning of life in order to help me stop it. I will miss you badly because we have so many memories together. When I am happy, sad, thinking, excited and to kill time. You are always there for me. Hopefully I can get back to where I was before.

Friday, December 2, 2011


I am going off to somewhere. I hope when I come back, I will be a new person. Wish me luck....Tata

Sunday, November 27, 2011

I pushed my luck

Good evening my grandchildren. Before I go to the topic, I want to tell and retell that I love my love birds so much. I even will go physical if anything threatens them. I am not lying. Okay now back to the topic. 2 days ago I went to an interview which I had to go if I wanted to work. The interview was on 24 of November and I must be there before 7.30 a.m. So on 23rd I went to my sister house which located very near to the interview venue. On that night, around 12 p.m I checked the checklist and found out I had not printed my identity card yet. I went out finding a shop to photocopy my IC and luckily there was a 7-11 shop had photostat service. After that I went straight back and had to find a solution about the IC copy. I had to find a person who can verify the copy is authentic. It was impossible to do that so I just went to sleep hoping the interviewer would not notice it tomorrow. I found myself hard to fall into sleep. The main reason was I missed my lovebirds. Yea. I was thinking about when I lying down. I was really afraid that when I am working, I will not be able to take care of them anymore. Maybe I will assign to work in a rural area so taking care of them is impossible. I thought those things very hard till without realizing I fell into sleep. I asked my sister to wake me up at 6.00 a.m. I could not set my own alarm clock because my handphone ran out of battery. I could not charge it coz I did not bring along the charger.
At 6.00 a.m my sister wake me up. oh yeah I was really sleepy. I lied down for about 5 minutes more before going to the toilet. I tell you what, I danced in the bathroom when the first drop of water touched my skin. It was so cold as if I was taking a shower in the Northern pole. It did wake me up. About 6.40 a.m I departed from the house and reached the venue around 6.55 a.m. I met my cohort friend there so we walked side by side to the registration counter. She registered first and when it was my turn, I handed out my files to the clerk there. You know what, she said to me " Sorry you should not give me your certificates like this. This is so messy.". I asked her "Why did you say like that?" and she answered me " You MUST use a flip file. Go and find it now." Yeah. She indirectly chased me out. I was like " What the heck, there is no rule saying that I have to use a flip file." I look at the clock while walking to the car and it was about 7.00 a.m. I was thinking to myself where should I find a flip file at the time like this. It was so early in the morning. I was about to crack but said to myself "If you crack now you will never ever able to buy good things for you love birds." My love birds did motivate me to find a flip file early in the morning. So I got an idea. I headed to the 7-11 which I photostatted my IC on the previous night.
When I was about reached it, I saw a stationary shop beside it and oh yeah it opened. I was quite disbelief and I scrubbed my eyes few times to ensure it. Oh yeahhh...It was real. The shop opened. I felt like a miracle was happening. That was my first time seeing a stationary shop opens so early in the morning. I went in and bought two flip files. The shop did not sell any newspaper but it opened so early.LULZ. I was very happy and nearly kissed the shopkeeper but I did not kiss her coz her face was unique. I put all my certificates into the first file. It took me about 5 minutes to do it. The photocopy certificates were still not being put into the second flip file. I decided I had to start driving back to the venue. I did not want to be late for my interview.
While driving I felt like I was a very good multi task person. One hand handling the car, another one putting the copies into the file and my mouth was biting other copies. Ahhh...I reached the venue. I walked very fast, faster than Japanese to the registration counter. As I reached I heard people chattering. Many people chattering. I was like (o.O). There were many other candidates queuing waiting to register. If I knew, I would take my own sweet time driving.
I saw my course mates there. So we sat together while waiting for registration. Then suddenly I remembered I had not verified my IC copy. Luckily one of my course mates also had not verified. So he went to find a person who could do that and he found one of the officers could verify them. I joined him to verify my IC. Fuhh...Another problem solved.
About 3 hours waiting then I was my turn to register. The clerk called me and looked at my FLIP files. Suddenly she said "You did not have a document saying that you are just graduated". I was like "HUUUU???". She repeated it and showed how did it look like. Yeah. I did not have it because I did not print it out. I did not know about it because I did not read properly the letter they sent to me. Haaa...Suddenly one of my course mates said to the clerk, "I have an extra I want to give to him". LULZ. Yeah...We are in the same programme so the verification is the same. HAAA...Settled. After awhile I was interviewed.
Was I nervous? At first I was nervous..Maybe about 5 seconds I felt nervous. It happened when I was waiting for my registration. I was nervous to be interviewed but you know what I said to myself? I said " The interviewer is a human. He is exactly like you. Fear not". After saying that to myself, I did not feel nervous at all...
The interview was about 40 minutes. After the interview, I went back to my sister's house. I slept for quite a long time.Huhu...I was so tired. When I woke up, I drove back to my parents' house.

I think that is all. I am going to sleep now. You take care okay. Push your luck. It is a good exercise.haha...Good night dear. Bye

Thursday, November 24, 2011

So tomorrow supposed to be a big day for me.Say something my grandchildren... =_=

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I hate when I have to take all of the stuff out from my wallet. My wallet is full of things which related to my sentimental side. When I see each one of them, as if they are telling me their stories. Memories start to hunt me.

Thursday, November 17, 2011


I see everyone is so damn cool. So I put my little smile along it makes me sweet against what's wrong. Keeps me going on and on.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


Nothing soothes more than listening to Mocca songs and do nothing after driving for quite a long time.I only slept for about 5 hours today.You know, people can be so hypocrite. I am not saying I am a good person but I do feel disappointed with them. How can they fake their feelings and give fake concern about something. This is life. I know the true all of you and it makes me sick when all of you start to fake your feelings as if you were really concern about it. I know your actions and what did you say before but why did you tell to other people as if you were really concern about it? If all of you really care about it, take care of it. Don't just start showing your concern when it is almost ends. All of you were given a very long time but only few really sincerely care about it. Never mind, all of you still have opportunity to show your concern about it. Hope all of you will change. Do not preach to me because I do not care about it and I am not a hypocrite. When I say I do not want, I will say I do not want it even to other people. Not like all of you, only say you do not want to people who are close to you but to other people, all of you will say you really want it. Why? So that people around you who do not know your true colour will think all of you are good people. So wrong. I pity people who fall into your trick.
I only know very few people who are not hypocrite and of course they are in other level of life. I do not care if I have very few friends but at least they are the best. I look at the quality not the quantity. I bet you will not understand what I am writing. That is my point. I hope you do not understand it because it is too personal but when you grow up, you will find the meaning of this in your life.

Sorry if I hurt anybody...Good night.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


I think too much things which not happening yet but for me it is some sort of preparation for the future. It does hurt me so much when remembering certain things in the past. Oh don't let me become dependent on others anymore because it ended up so bad.So just follow the flow and waiting for the right person to follow me.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Two months to go

Actually I cannot wait for the day when I have full authority of my life. I want to change so many things about me and my life. So what should I do while waiting?~_~

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Ever been cheated in your love life? This song can express really well.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Here we go again

Out of nowhere today I feel so down.Again...I think it all started when I heard a news regarding my posting. It will be next year. I have to stay at home for at least 2 months more. You know how much I hate holidays. If I have too many holidays,it makes my brain becoming slower and lazier. I need to be always on tasks in order to stay sharp. Doing nothing is not good for me.You know, there were times when I had semester breaks, I stayed alone in another house in the town. I enjoyed it very much. I remember where I sharpened my piano and playing keyboard during those semester breaks. Not an easy task for me to do those things. My left hand was stiff so I could not play the bass very well. So during those semester breaks, I only used my left hand in every single thing I did including eating. Chill out. I ate using spoon. Preoccupying myself doing things like those makes me using my brain and forcing myself to do something out of the ordinary.
Now back to the down feeling...The internet is too slow. I cannot play online game properly. I lost several games. That is not cool. I feel unsatisfied because I lost due to the lagging. Not because I was an incompetence player. Seriously.
Bragging like this won't do any good so I stop now. I want to read something to make me feel good...nite2

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Prank 1

Good morning. It is 3:54 AM 30/10/2001. Still early for me to sleep. When you are about the same age like me later, do not copy my lifestyle. It is not good for your health. Sleep less than 6 hours leads to so many dangerous diseases. Okay for today I want to tell you a thing which I did when I was still young and dangerous. @_@

When I was a child, I always misbehaved because I wanted to know the consequences and they gave me adrenalin rush. I remember when I was in primary school I pranked my friends. Yeah it was a bad thing to do but that time I was a child. You know what did I do? Some of my friends and I went to a public phone and called for a pizza delivery. I was chosen to call and talk to the operator because I had experience ordering pizza for delivery before. The menu was not a problem because every month they would send us pamphlet about the latest promotion. We chose the most expensive set and expensive side dishes. We ordered in a large quantity. AT first the operator did not believe in me because of three reasons. The first one was I was a kid and the second one was regarding the quantity and the third one was I did not give them my land line number. Luckily I came out with excellent reasons saying that I was about to throw a surprise party for my parents who just came back from U.S. Regarding the landline problem, I told them the phone cable was stolen. I had to contain my self from laughing or it would blow my lie. I gave the operator the victim's address and his name. Very precise directions because they could not contact us anymore to find the victim's house.After we were done ordering it, we went back as fast as possible to see how's the victim would react. His house was near our houses so we watched the drama from far. About 20 minutes later a delivery guy from pizza came. I was so impressed because he could find the house in a short time. So you know what happened? The delivery guy stopped and called for the owner of the house. The victim's mother went out and they had a long conversation. The victim went out as his mother called him. Lastly the delivery guy went back to the pizza restaurant.

The next day the news about the prank spread. It was not only a topic between kids in the neighbourhood but it was between parents as well. We asked the victim what was a pizza guy doing at his house yesterday. He told us someone had pranked him and he was still finding the gulity person. He also told that his mother wanted to take all the pizzas but he was full that time. We pretended like we did know who was responsible for that because all of us involved.

After reading this maybe you would think I am evil, yeah I am an evil guy. Many more to come. I will write about other not-nice-things which I had done when I was a kid. Did I feel sorry for doing that?Of course I did feel sorry. But that thing had passed. Nothing could change it. I got to go now. I want to watch football. Real Madrid is playing. CR!!! Good night dear...Bye

Friday, October 28, 2011

Still I am looking

While I was surfing to find out about a thing which has been bothering me for a week, I found a song. A really nice song. Yar, the song is a different genre from which I often listen to but it is worth to be in my Mp3. Her voice is raw and the song is sad. Suits my style.Simple yet it conveys strong emotions.

I am still searching for it.Great song can come from anywhere.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

My birdies

So before I go to sleep,I wanna write something for you.The first thing is today I almost lost one of my precious again or in normal human language is one of my birds. As you know, I raised a pair of lovebirds since they were young so now both of them can fly. They are super tame and their cuteness level is 10 out of 10. If you don't think my lovebirds are cute and adorable, I am very happy to announce that you are an improper human being. So as I woke up around 3 O clock, I did what I usually do. I bathed and switched on my desktop. While waiting it fully on, I took out both of my birds from the cage. You know, it is a routine for me releasing them in the house so they will wander around my desktop. They will bite every single thing. Today went on just like another typical day. They both happily bit my mouse and the modem router while I was concentrating on a new song given by my friend. Then suddenly I heard one of my lovebirds sang and chirped loudly. I knew the song was meant to call its partner. Impulsively I looked at the birds but I only found the female. I looked down and around finding the male but I couldn't find it. My heart skipped a beat. (I would live longer a beat because the lower the frequency of heart beating, the longer one shall live). So I said...Here we go againnnnn...(I lost him once before).

I stopped listening to the new song and began to find the bird. The female kept singing and chirping calling for her partner. My mind started to think all those feelings where I felt when the first time I lost him. I could not think properly because emotions started to overwhelm. My lovebirds are one of my most valuable possessions and I always treasure them like my own siblings. I went to calm my self down and started to plan my moves. From far I could hear the male chirping and calling for his partner and the female chirped back. I took the female outside. I let her to chirp and call. I was hoping that the male would come if he listen. Then both of them started to call each other. Still no sign of the male. I could not trace the exact location of the male.(You know how poor my eye sight is). I tried for almost 1 hour but still no good sign that the male would come. So I went inside my house and took a rest. While resting I heard the male was nearer. Once again I went outside and guess what? I could merely saw it inside a bush. I saw it in a glance but I was very confident that it was him. The problem was the bush situated in a swamp.

I calculated all the options and alternatives. The rain was coming down. I had no choice. I needed to get into the swamp. Oh before I forget the only way I could access the swamp was by going from my neighbour house. It was situated behind his house. I ran to my neighbour's house and saw his father at the back of the house. I asked for his permission to trespass his farm so that I could get into the swamp. Permission granted. Slowly I approached the swamp and every step I took, I would sink deeper and deeper into the mud. I spotted my bird from quite far. I called him. He just chirped back. I tried to make him fly to me but he did not want to fly. I approached as the nearest as I could and I noticed he was all wet. He could not fly. He did try to fly to me. I could see his head was shaking and he adjusted his body position to fly to me but when he flipped his wings, he felt down. I jumped to him and caught him before he was completely felt into the swamp. By the time I grabbed him, I realised that I was sunk up to my knees.LOL. I could barely walk. I lost my slippers when I took my first step going back.

After I succeed retrieved the bird, I headed back. I saw my neighbour's father was still there. He asked me about the bird. He started to argue that the bird was not a lovebird but it was another species of a local bird. I had no time to waste arguing something which clearly I was right. I walked back with my bare feet. On the way back I had a free reflexology session because the road headed to my house was deconstructed. So the road was completely gravels. After reaching home, I gave him a good shower. I wiped him till he dried and put him back with his partner.They kissed each other when the first time they met after the incident. The female helped the male to groom. I took them both and kissed them..Oyeahh...I love them very much!!!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Bad days

You know today is a gloomy day for me. A very bad day. It all started last night. Around 8.30 p.m last night I texted my friend asking him out for dinner. I did that because before this he asked me out several times but I had to turn down every invitation because I was busy. After several times I called him that we made a deal to meet up in 15 minutes. I was quite happy because finally we could meet. Then 15 minutes passed. He did not show up. I waited again..20 minutes,30 minutes,40 minutes...I called him but he did not pick up. I surfed the internet and opened my facebook and..... He was still online. I pmed him asking about our deal, he said he was asking another friend to accompany him that was why he had not departed yet. I was like "@_@". Well at least he should have told me about he would be getting late because he was asking other friend to accompany. So he asked me to wait in 15 minutes more. He guaranteed he would come to my house in 15 minutes. I agreed. 20 minutes passed still no sign of him. Then I waited till 30 minutes passed. I said okay that was it. I called him but he did not pick up then I saw he was still online. I pmed him saying that I did not want to carry on the plan anymore. He replied saying that the friend did not want to go. He asked me to wait again because he just asked another friend to come along. He said he needed 10 more minutes. I do not know why but last night I was so patient. I gave him the third chance. 15 minutes passed once again I texted him I want to cancel it because I wanted to play online games already. He replied "I am waiting for him to come,I also do not know what takes him so long". I said to my friend, now the planned was canceled okay. He could not accept it. He would come to my house no matter what..~_~... I ignored the message and I wanted to play online games....Good Lord, the server was down. I did not know what to do. I started to read books then not long after that (actually quite long) I heard a car approaching my house. "OoO...they are here already" I said to myself. I looked at the watch it was 11.16 p.m...OoO...Funny though coz I planned to go out around 9 p.m. So we were off to the restaurant which was chosen earlier.

At the restaurant I did not talk much because I was tired of waiting and in the same time I was eager to go back as soon as possible. I wanted to play online games. They talked about topics which I was not interested. Topics like politics and mystic things.... I rather listening than talking. I only talked when they asked for my opinion. Got one story made me giggled because I was trying very hard not to laugh. I had to take care of the story teller feelings. Laughing at that time would hurt his feelings because he was really believing in mystic things. He told me about 1 weak ago he met a pious person who had a sword. The unique feature about the sword was it could be folded and put into bag!!! I could imagine how the sword is being folded...He told me that sword was sold for 5 million...~_~"...What on earth did he think to share me with this kind of story... The more I stayed there the more I felt uncomfortable. They smoked and the smoke made me dizzy. I made my move by paying the food first and we all went back. When we reached my home, one of my friends told me that tomorrow in the evening at 5 p.m( yesterday's evening) he would call me asking me to join him netting some birds near his house. Yup.. I was really interested to participate because it would be a new experience for me. I agreed and we had confirmed several times about the time and who would call first. So I waited...

The evening came...I did not go anywhere from 3 p.m because I was afraid I could not make in time if he called me. 5 o'clock and guess what? I was still waiting...Then 5.30 p.m and I was still waiting. Then I felt enough of waiting. I did not want to wait anymore. I went to do something which I am good at it. I did not want to call him asking about it. Listen here, if you make an appointment and you fail to come, the least you can do is call and tell the reason why you cannot make it. That is the least thing to do.

The bad mood keep on building till the night. I felt like I was being stabbed at the back by one of my friends. OMG. I do not have many friends because I am a choosy person in friendship thingy but what he did really hurts me. I never felt betrayed like this before. I am not being a woman or what..You think man cannot feel sad?huh?

So now what have I learnt? I will not go out with that friend anymore...You know, punctuality is important when you make promises. I am very particular about it. Then do not back stab people. It is not a good thing to do. Better you encounter him and tell to him frankly what you dont like about him. Haih...Never mind....I do not mind living alone..ahaha...okay to take care k..night2..bye

Monday, October 24, 2011

Why so funny?

I do not know why but recently I think I can laugh over something easily. I think I am losing control of myself because I do not have enough sleep. These "wisdom principles" made me smiled or to be precise grinned even I tried very hard to control it.

1. Money cannot buy happiness but somehow,it's more comfortable to cry in a Mercedez Benz than it is on a bicycle.

2. Forgive your enemy but remember the bastard's name.

3. Help a man when he is in trouble and he will remember you when he is in trouble again.

4. Many people are alive only because it's illegal to shoot them.

5. Alcohol does not solve any problem, but then neither does milk.

6. If stupid people are aeroplanes, then we need many airports.

What do you think?I think they are funny...A bit paranoid but that's the truth...

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Saturday, October 22, 2011

I am high

I was watching Ketchup song just for fun then I saw a comment. The comment in the youtube made me spilled the milk I was drinking through my nose....I found it so funny!!!

LOL I FUCKIN never knew what they were saying in the chorus :

" Assereh√©-ha-ehe, Dehebetoudehabesouwanowanahabi­yamadoudibi ibi...

Assereh√©-ha-ehe, Dehebetoudehabesouwanowanahabi­yamadoudibi ibi, Assereh√©-ha-ehe, Dehebetoudehabesouwanowanahabi­yamadoudibi ibi... "

All with me ! :D


I do not know what do you think but for me it is funny...Maybe I cannot think properly because I haven't slept for almost 15 hours...Funny guy...

Friday, October 21, 2011

Chaos days

Morning~_~. Before I sleep, I want to write about something because I am afraid I would forget soon. The story started 2 days ago. I slept at 9 a.m then at 3 p.m my uncle came to my house and called me. I woke up slowly because I suppose to wake up at 5 p.m. That is my official schedule for sleeping. On that day only, my sleep was interrupted three times. One because I had to send my little sister to school and the other two was because my friend called me informing he almost reached his destination. I agreed to meet him then I slept again. I made a deal without thinking too much because I wanted to get to sleep as fast as possible. Back to the story about my uncle asking me out, he asked me to accompany him to a supermarket in the town. He planned to upgrade his desktop there so he wanted to listen to my advice. So you know, when you just wake up you need to take time to synchronize your brain in order to think logically but what I did was I just agreed and straight headed into his car. I also did not know why I did that. Maybe I was still blur. Yup, I did not wash my face or what so ever. As approaching the supermarket, I started to regain my conscious. My feet felt slightly uncomfortable, I looked down and found something funny. I wore slippers in different pair. The left was mine and the right was my father's. Haha. In my head I was thinking "This is going to be pretty ugly and funny". You know why? The supermarket that we were heading to is the most popular supermarket in the town. For sure many people would be there. So we arrived there.

Before going down from the car, I checked my self in the mirror. I saw an ugly person with a dry face, dry hair wearing a loose collar T-shirt and a pair of track suits. What made it worse was wearing a different pair of slippers on each foot. What a combo. I looked completely like a beggar. To increase my esteem, I said to myself "hey chill, this is in the name of fashion. Lady Gaga ( google her my grandchildren) often wears weird and ugly stuff. So no sweat okay". Oh yeahh.. I did feel better... I walked behind my uncle to a computer shop. The worker there said it would take about 30 minutes to up grade the computer. My uncle took me to a Mc D restaurant. He asked my to order anything for my self as a compliment for accompany him. I actually was still full because usually before I sleep, I will take a heavy breakfast so that when I am sleeping I will not wake up because of hunger. That day I had no choice. I had to eat in order to kill time. Guess what I ordered???...Yeahh..Correct..I ordered a set of Double Cheese burger. The most tastiest burger in the world. Don't ever say you have other burger to replace this tastiest burger in the world. To cut the story short, it was almost 6.15 p.m and the desktop was still not finished upgraded. I had to meet my friends at night. I asked my uncle to send me back. I arrived home at around 7 p.m.


Okay...I promised to my friends that I would depart at 8 p.m so I hurried my self bathing and packing my stuff because I planned to sleep with them. It was raining heavily but because I made my promise, I had to go no matter what. So I drove a car there. Around 8.45 p.m I met them. We talked about so many things but not going in depth because there was my junior following us. I felt awkward to talk about something serious when there is a person who is not so close. Then we decided to watch a movie at the nearest shopping mall. We bought tickets for 12.30 a.m movie. By the way, I did not pay for the tickets. Thanks to my friend who treated us. The movie entitled Real Steel. Quite okay that movie. I give 3 stars out of 5 because I tend to look logical things in a movie. We went to one of my friends house in the nearest university in that state. We slept there and the junior who slowly becoming my friend also slept there.

The problem started when I was about to sleep. All of us slept in the same room. The junior fell into sleep first while I was having conversation with my friends. He started to snore!!! OMG. I cannot sleep when people snoring. I said to my friend who was still awake " How am I suppose to sleep when the noise keeps me awake?" and my friend laughed. Few minutes later, my friend fell into sleep too. The funny part was he also snored!!! And I WAS IN THE MIDDLE... I regretted for not bringing my Mp3 player. If not I could listen to music to counter their duet snoring...Hahaha... I remember 3 weeks ago when I slept with other friends, I complained to one of them and that he snored when he was sleeping. You know what did he said? " I am not snoring. I AM JUST BREATHING LOUDLY" Then he grinned..~_~.. Okay back to the situation when I was in the middle. So I could not sleep. I look at my handphone, it was 4 a.m. How was I suppose to sleep when two people were snoring on each side and also it was 4 a.m!!! 4 a.m is the time where I should playing online games. I force myself into sleep. I started to imagine nice and tranquil. I could see a lake surrounded by mountains but they were fading away slowly. They were replaced by the scenery in DOTA map. Arghhh!! Then out of nowhere the characters in DOTA started to show up into the scenery. Then a war had started...~_~. I began to plot my moves and strategies to win. I could not sleep because my brain was active even my body was so tired. Then I heard my alarm ringing...It was 6.30 a.m already... After I did what I suppose to do, suddenly I fell into sleep. I woke up at 11 a.m and saw my friend rushing to his work place.LOL.

At 3.30 p.m I went back home. Then I went out with my family and came back at 10.40 p.m. I played online games until I decided to write this to you.. :) I stop early today because I cannot concentrate due to fatigue. I cannot respond fast enough and my awareness is so low. When I talk to my friends, I will talk something without thinking first. I just utter what inside my mind spontaneously. Eh dear, I am so tired. I am heading to bed now okay. You take care...bye2

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Parents?Better parrots

Good morning my grandchildren. I come again. You ought to be happy because I am going to write something. If you are not happy just pretend to be okay? I have an issue here and this issue I have kept it for along time. I am happy to see my friends are getting married so one fine day they will become parents. You know, it is not an easy task to be a parent. Many things should be taken into account and well considered before becoming a parent. It is not a try and error task. Your children will be doomed when you apply try and error task to your children. They will suffer from many negative effects. Many do not realise parenting is a life long task. Usually most parents that I met are becoming or behaving like a parent when they want to. They abandon their responsibilities when they feel like they want to. This is soooo wroong. You know, growing up in a family when your parents are not fit enough to be a parent is very hard. Children will suffer from physical and mental damage. Wounds will heal but mental damage is permanent. They will carry it until their dying days. It will affect how children behave and see the world. If a child grows up in unhealthy parenting condition, she will see the world as a dark place to live. She will always see things in negative ways, and becoming self centered. I pity to those children. I curse parents who do not really fit enough. Go and read first what to expect and how to be a good parent then after you are well equipped with skills and knowledge, become one. Me myself admit I do not ready to be a parent. I am not ready to give a full time commitment to my children and my spouse. Seriously small things like fetching your children from the school or attending Parents and Teachers meeting will increase your children self esteem and other positive elements in them. You know when I was a child, I would analyze my parents actions whether they really love me or not. I think all the children would do the same. They analyze and judging their parents by actions that their parents make. Small things for parents but they are big things for children. If you want to be a parent when you want to but withdraw when you do not want, then do not become one. You only torturing your children. When you are a parent, do not force your children to full fill your incomplete dream like becoming a doctor or marry a rich guy. That is your dream not your children's dream. You have failed so accept it. Your children have their own dreams. Support them. You know, I find it irritating when parents who only know to scold their children when they are not doing well in their exams. The funny part is the parents do not do anything at all like asking their children about what is the problem or even helping their children doing revision. The only thing they know is scolding. They only want result. Haih. This type of parents I tell you is really annoying. Sorry if I hurt anybody and now I am going off. I want to watch One Piece now. Until next time, good bye.

Sunday, October 16, 2011


Good evening my dear grandchildren. It has been awhile. Tonight out of nowhere I feel like I want to write but most probably about random things. Wait for awhile I am recalling things that I want to write. 1,2,3...I wish everyday is Sunday so that I can watch the latest episode of One Piece anime everyday. The anime is so exciting and makes me feel like"I can't wait for next episode". Sad to say it only released once a week. Oh yea before I forget, you know I am watching Beethoven Virus drama right? The funny part is I skip the part where they show romantic scenes because I only interested in scenes about music and conflicts between the characters, not between couple. So I get a good drama by doing that. I just finished chatting with my friend. Now he is working in a Forex company. I am so glad we still keep in touch. We made a promise to travel together in 3 years time. Hopefully we will have the chance to travel together.Now I realize I have made many promises. Okay after this no more promises. Now we move on to other thing. Do you use vulgar words in your daily life? Frankly speaking yes I do. I do curse using vulgar words but I do not mean to hurt people by using them. It is just for fun because when you combine vulgar words with some random things, they will become something so random. When I am in serious situation, I do not use vulgar words to express my feelings because for me people who usually curse and use vulgar words are immature, not clever enough and most importantly they have limited vocabulary. That is why they use vulgar words to express their emotions. Sometime I do feel irritated when I hear women and girls use vulgar words. I am not being sexual stereotyping or feminist, but when I see any woman, I have respect for them. Higher respect than men. When they start to utter vulgar words, my respect to them becoming lower and lower then I will treat them just like I treat men. Then they will feel I am being disrespectful but they are the one who make me act like that. Even to men also I feel irritated when they curse using vulgar words.
Eh, it is late already. I need to sleep. Good night dear...Love you so much...bye

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


You know, sometimes even the strongest needs a person to lean on because the person has been so strong for a long time. Can I tell you something?Nope. Cannot because I barely know you and I do not easily trust people. It takes years to gain trust.If you were here,I promise I will tell you every single thing from the start till the end. Just listen because I rarely tell people about it. Oh I never tell anyone actually. Everything will be just fine one day. So since you are not here yet, I will keep all of them to my self till I meet you. I remember a saying " When something random happens, you will have someone on your mind to tell it." Who do you think on my mind? Heh

Monday, October 10, 2011

No I don't have any pic regarding one of the biggest event in my life (I suppose). Thanks to everyone and thank for giving me something. Thank for congratulating me directly or indirectly.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

So what now?

I want to prove to you that you are wrong even it takes years.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Winner takes it all

Good evening my grandchildren. Actually I did not plan to write today but since my favourite football team they put it on delay broadcast, so I write but before that I just want to say "WHHYYYY they put Real Madrid game on delay???I wanted to see the team badly.WHYYY??". Okay I said already what I had to say.Now back to my normal life. I just watched a football game. One of the team was beaten quite bad. Yeah, they must be a loser to have a winner but I feel bad for the losing side. I always pity the losing side even I am in the winning side. I feel bad when I beat other people but I have to beat them in order to win. Can I have a game where everyone is a winner? I don't think there will be a game where everyone is a winner. If you go to a funfair sure you will come across a game where there will be a person shouting "Come and play this game, everyone is a winner" but he lies. Haha...If everyone is a winner, for sure the funfair will go bankrupt. The world is cruel but I think I can minimize the impact to other people. So what can I do? If I become a winner after beating other people, I have to thank them. It is a bit crazy but I have to say something like " Hey thanks for letting me win". I cannot find the proper way to thank them in order to appreciate them because without a loser,there will not be a winner. I am not being snobbish or look down at them but somehow I feel I need to do something to show I am grateful but in the same time trying not to hurt the people who I beat. I need to stop writing now. The more I write, the more complicated it becomes. I am afraid when the time comes and you read this, you will think I was a crazy man.
( I use "was" because I am already dead by the time you read this). If I lose, yeah I will be sad but not for a long time. I will try harder next time. Okay dear, time to sleep. Tomorrow will be a busy day for me. Good night.

Monday, September 26, 2011

What's your favourite smell?

Before I'm going to sleep, I want to write this incase I forget later. Since I was young, there are several smells and odors which I like a lot. I remember whenever I came across hard cover books especially the new ones, I would love to open them and inhale as deep as I could at each page. The smell was so nice.Other then that, whenever I got new electronics toys I also did the same.Oh ya, when I was a teenager and I had a Playstation game, I also did the same thing for a few days. The smell of petrol also nice but it is hazardous. =-=. Vanilla also...hoho...Before I eat vanilla bread, usually I enjoy the smell of it first. Dettol soap also nice...Yarrr...Smells like in the hospital.There are several hotels which have certain nice smells. I like them very much. Make me feel like sleepy. I like to go near babies. They have specific smells which make me feel at ease.Talking about this I remember an incident where it happened not a long time ago. I went to a mosque then when I was praying, I smelled something foul. I could not breath properly. The foul smell came from a person who smoked first before he prayed. So disturbing and made my head dizzy. If you are a smoker, you better be sensitive a bit. Brush your teeth regularly because it stinks. I almost died you know because I held my breath for way too long.When I was a kid, I had a friend who had a very foul smell. He did not brush his teeth so everytime he came near to me and talked, he could see my face sweated a lot. Then he asked me why. I told him I was not feeling well because I had fever. I gave the same excuse for almost 1 year. Actually I held my breath everytime he talked to me. I did not have the heart to tell him the truth. If I come across this situation again, I will tell the truth. I promise. It is for his own good.Okay2...sleepy already. Good night, sleep tight. Beware of boogie man under your bed....Good bye

Saturday, September 24, 2011


Good evening my grandchildren.Been good?Before I sleep I want to share with you my recent life. You know,lately I am so busy settling my convocation thinggy. Last Wednesday, I headed to the town driving. I went to two separate banks paying the fees. It was so hot even the air conditioner was working fine. Both banks are located far from each other. I went to the farthest first because the traffic there was so smooth. After I had done my business with the first bank, I headed to the second bank. As I was nearing the bank, the traffic got very slow. After several minutes driving, I reached the bank. Now I got a new problem. The parking lots there were all full. Why so many people in my hometown went out that day?I circled the parking lots there several times. Found one but it was a side parking spot. I tried to park there but the space was so limited.=-=. The worst was when the cars which tailing me did not give me any room to reverse due to too many of them were following me.So I parked at the side of the main road. Yar..It was illegal parking but I was pretty sure it did not obstruct the traffic. Then I rushed to the bank. Waarghhh...The bank was closed. I was so down and dragged my feet slowly to the car...I saw something shaped like a paper under the wipers and I took a closer look..Wahh...A summon for parking..That was my first time in my life I got a ticket. I am no longer a virgin driver...I did not know why but after seeing the ticket, I left the car there and went to straight to a nasi kandar restaurant nearby and ate there.Until now I cannot find any relationship between having the ticket and went to eat. So mysterious. After eating, I went back. So on this coming Monday, I need to go to the second back once again and also paying the ticket. Eh wait, I think I lost the ticket already. I don't know where I put it.Later I search for it. Okay,sleepy already. Oh by the way, songs in Beethoven virus drama are good. I off first ok..Good night

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

When shall we meet?

You know,it has been awhile since the last time I was sad and frustrated. Lay in the bed, listening to mellow songs on my mp3 and thinking of you. The best part is I do not know where you are. I hope I will find what I am looking for and if I do not find you, I rather be alone forever then spending my life with a person whom I am not really giving my part to the fullest. Where are you?I have so many things to tell you.


Suddenly when I think of what I said, I am pretty sure you are in pain.Sorry I couldn't protect you

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Have zombies eaten your brains?

How to begin?Wait I am thinking.Ok now I got it. If I know too little about something, I learn not to comment until I have the whole picture. Recently some random friends up loaded a video showing grinding machine which is used to dispose dead animals like horse and cow. I saw the video a long time ago and I read the descriptions attached to the video. The sad part is when the random friends out of nowhere I am not sure where they got the information posted on some random social network saying that the machine is used in processing meats to make fast food. The sad part is they blame it as the work of Jews. You know the drill. All the Jews are always in the process of making something harmful to Islam. Yup, I am so disappointed with the random friends. They just posted on the social network without thinking the effects. From the start they got it wrong. First they do not really do some research about the video and the truth behind it. Secondly without any religion sense or morale conscious blame it as the work of Jews to destroy Islam. Come on man. The basic step when you got something from the net is do some research before spreading it. It is very unethical to spread something that you, yourself not knowing whether it is true or not. You are spreading disease to other people who are in the same shoes like you( just believe without doing research or verify it first). You know how much damage you create?
The other thing I want to touch is not all Jews are evil. Why so paranoid about them? I am so frustrated with the friends who I thought so pious. They just defamed Jews when spreading the video. Congrats my friends. You just showed to the world that your religion is so paranoid and encourage people to defame other races. Dudes, you are adult now. Grow up. You are being stereotype. Ya, you piss off when people around the world defame your religion and labeling your religion as terrorists yet you do the same thing to other people. What is the difference between you and them?
If you really so pious and want to change people, change yourself first. Verify what you have and then share. Don't be irresponsible. I am not a saint but I am just being logical. Night2.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

My trouble makers

Good morning my grandchildren. How are you?Have you eaten?Today I wake up so early because I am trying to find one of my turkeys.Haih.Those two turkeys really make me famous.Now everyone in my village knows those belong to me since they always escaping from the coop.I still do not find it so after this I will try harder.Before I continue my search,here is the latest vid of my two love birds. Both can fly already. As I am writing this,these two birds are wandering around my desktop biting every wire they can find.Actually quite tiring taking care of them but I enjoy it.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Come back

Where are you?Please come back to me.I promise you I won't force doing things you don't like.I miss you really bad.I am worried about you. Have you eaten?Are you cold?I miss you so much.Come back to me please.The pain is killing me. I love you with all my heart.Miss your.Miss you so much.How could you do this to me?I have searched you with all my might.Come back to me.
Why suddenly everything goes really bad?Don't you miss me?
Maybe I am wrong for letting you get deep into my heart.Treat you with love and affection.How can you survive from now on?Who will protect you from the world?What if other people or anything threaten you?To whom you can seek protection?
You are so beautiful.So beautiful.I do not want you to fall into the wrong hand or anything bad happens to you. I miss you.Don't go too far from me...I miss you so much...If anything bad happens to you,I can't help it but to blame myself for letting you go.Biane my love....Please come back...Your partner is waiting for you...

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Latest vid

Good morning my dear grandchildren. How are you?Answer me even I am not there. Okay today I am going to show you a bit about my birds. They are lovebirds from peach faced species. Actually I do not know the sex of both but I prefer to say they are boys. This video is focusing on on one of them which starts to wean. You know he now can fly in a short distance. Today in the afternoon when I was playing a computer game, I put them on the table near me. Suddenly I felt something was on my shoulder and when I looked, there he was. He flew from his bucket and rested on my shoulder. I ignored him because I was focusing on the game suddenly he flew straight down on my keyboard. He started to bite the keyboard. I was having hard time to play the game since he was on my keyboard yet I still ignored him. After awhile, he stopped biting and fell asleep on my keyboard. Yar. He chirped loudly to get my attention when he was falling into sleep. He is so adorable but there are times where he will go on rampage.He will bite everything even my finger when I touch him. I remember when he was biting my camera casing then I purposely took it away from him. He was so furious and started to bit me everytime I touched him. In this video, he is grooming himself and it was taken before he could fly. He does not like to be disturbed when grooming himself. He was on rampage.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

I miss you badly

It has been awhile since my last writing. Tonight I am going to write again. About 4 days ago I lost one of my mynas. As usual in the morning when I am going to feed my turkeys outside, I will let both of my mynas go outside of their cage. They will follow me with open mouth asking me to feed them even they are not hungry. So that day when I opened the cage, only one of them followed me. I whistled louder and louder to cue the other one but it only opened its mouth and flapping its wings to respond to the cue.Damn sad...I did not know why it did not follow me and feeling dissatisfied I went to it and hold it in my hands.I tossed it gently into the air as I was near to their favourite tree but it fell down. I started to catch something was wrong with it. So I did physical check on it. Its anal was not clean and my heart started to beat fast because in bird world,unclean anal indicates they are so sick. Next I checked its tongue and it looked pale. The bird started to chirp slower and slower. It tried its best to put a distance between me and it. It hid itself under their favourite tree. That time it started to rain.So sad if I recall.I rushed into the house and took medicine for it. I forced it to drink and took it inside my house. I put it next to me but it wanted to be alone. It walked slowly behind my CPU and stayed there. I knew it would end sadly so I hold it into my arms even there was some struggling happened. Then after a few moment it calmed down and let me hold it into my arms.I was so sleepy because I did not sleep during the previous night and I put it into the cage inside my house. I looked at it and it went to the corner to be alone.I fell to sleep and when I woke up it died near the cage door.At that point,there was no words could describe my feeling.In the evening,in the rain,I dug a hole and buried it witnessed by its brother.
You know, the damage is so huge. I saw it grew up,I fed it till it could fly,so tame and adorable,always asking me to pet its head,loved to perch on my shoulder,being so noisy when heard my voice,came to me when I whistled no matter where it was,bathing in front of me and accompanied me when I was cleaning their cage and fish tank.I feel like I lost something very precious. I miss its chirp and actions when asking for food. Two days before the incident, I was not really spending time with it because I wanted to teach it eating by itself but I still took it out in the morning and in the evening.Hmmm...Yet I have nothing to regret. I miss it so much. I know it sounds stupid but I do sometimes feel like as if I heard it chirps but that is my imagination.Hmmm...I am so lost.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Recent song

Currently I like this song so much. I can't recall when was the first time I heard it. I do not know why but the girl seems so cool. Maybe she does not talk at all. The words in the song are powerful. Cool girl...

Thursday, August 25, 2011

I want to remember you

This is for my future.You are like a balloon where you are full

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

My new birdies

Good morning my grandchildren. Today I want to show you my new birds which I bought them 3 days ago. They are still young yet so energetic. They do not want so sleep in their cage so I have to put them outside near my computer. Actually they were sleeping but I had to wake them up in order to have better view. No I do not have names for them yet. Hopefully they will grow up healthily.Oh before I forget, they are peach faced love birds.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Things to do tomorrow

I have mixed feelings while waiting for tomorrow to come.I need to go to a workshop in the nearest town to repair my father's car. After that I need to bank in money to a bird supplier. Yar. I just placed my order for two birds which still required hand feeding.They are peach faced lovebirds. The supplier later will post the birds using bus. Sounds funny but it is true.I made this decision because I woke up in the evening and raising from birds from chicks option came into my mind. So I chose to buy them. Don't worry, the supplier is verified real.
I think I am the only one who is excited about this. Oh, the supplier was a weirdo. I texted the supplier mentioning my intention and every message replied contained emoticons like " :) and :P ". The worst case was he is a man. Tired of reading his messages containing emoticons, I called him and placed my order. Haaa...
If tomorrow goes smoothly, I will receive my new birds on Monday.Right now I have 2 mynas which are raised from chicks and 2 turkeys. Whenever I release them from their cages, they will follow me. I have followers when I am walking at the front of the house and somehow it makes me feel like I am a mafia leader with loyal followers.
Later when I have my new birds, I will show them to you. I need to sleep already. Good night my grandchildren. Good bye.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Which one?

Good morning my grandchildren. How are you?I really want to know how are you today. I am not asking for the sake of politeness.Have you ever heard about a proverb saying You are what you eat? I just ate Durians. So now am I a Durian?
Actually I have a dilemma here. I am thinking very hard whether to take a pair of lovebird chicks or fully weaned. Both have pros and cons. I want my pets to be very tame so I need to raise at the young age but I do not have the experience of taking care this type of bird. If I take fully weaned, they can breed and their food is easy to obtain but they will not be as tame as I want. Maybe I should sleep first and when I wake up,the first choice comes to my mind will be picked. +_+.This type of making decision is so childish. It reminds me when kids at certain age making decision. For example if you give them to choose between cake or ice cream, first they will choose ice cream and if you ask again to choose between ice cream or cake, they will choose cake. Later you will realize that they make their decision by choosing the last item. Don't say you never did that kind of method when making decision.
I shall sleep by now in order to make decision. I hope my decision will be the correct one. One thing I need to keep in my mind is when I have made my decision, I must be ready to bear the consequences.So I am going to sleep and in the same time I need to prepare my self bearing the consequences. :P
Before I go to sleep, I just want to say that I dislike women with make up.Yea they are pretty in make up but it is fake beauty. Fake is bad for me.Why am I telling you this? I also do not know. =_=. Okay, I need to sleep. Hopefully everything is good.Nite2 dear.Taaa

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Random mind

Do not make permanent damage on temporary anger

Lightning does not strike the same spot twice

I remember this song.

Do you?Do you?Do you?

Monday, August 15, 2011

3 I prefer this one

There are three versions of this song but I like this one the most.Why?Notice the piano accompanies the song ? It leaves huge impacts on the song. It makes the song becoming dramatic and full of emotions. If you don't get it, you ought to listen to the two other versions of this song.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

How I see world

Today I feel I want to share something. Have you ever had crushed on someone? And when you have crush on someone whether you realize it or not you are REALLY trying your best to find something that your crush does as a signal to you that she also has the same feeling on you. Have you? Even the slightest action like she drinks the same type of water like you are drinking will be seen as a significant signal to you. As time passes by, you will start to hallucinate by searching any common actions and behaviours that you and your crush do to regard them as signals. Maybe you will lay in your bed, thinking and saying "Hey, I think she really likes me because too many signals she has conveyed to me. Nah, I don't think they are just coincidences." Have you been through this situation?

That is just an opening for a broad topic that I want to share. My friend just clashed with his girlfriend. He was really down and called me to share his feelings. I am not a good person to advise or give motivation because I do not really believe in something abstract like feelings. I just listened and gave my point of views. Very rough point of views where I said "She does not want you so move on. Accept the fact that you just lost her". I know that line is not suitable to say for people who are having hard time after breaking with their love ones but that is the truth. I cannot give good motivations full of sweet words and promises to him. I just can't. I remember his saying " I thought she was the one for me because I always dream about her." Besides that,I also have a friend who also said the same thing to me. He dreamed about his girlfriend and based on some actions that she did in the dream, he strongly believed that girl would be his wife.The sad part is they have stopped seeing each other now.

The common thing about these two friends is they are having hard times to move on since they have seen so many signs indicating their ex girlfriends would be their wives.Come on friends. I used to be like both of them. Believing in those things. Seeing "signs" and significant things that indicate she is the one. I start to lose faith in those when I watch a film about a rebel happened in France. The movie really shook me to the core. There is one character playing the role as Satan questioning the heroin about signs from God saying that the heroin is the one who can save her country.The Satan questions all the signs that the girl believes as signals from God as signs she is the one.

Dreams, coincidences and actions that we think significant and signs from God or from whatever you believe in to show she is the one are nothing. NOTHING. We,ourselves who see them and because we want to have something to believe in so we create our own meaning. A dream is just a dream, nothing more than that. Actions from your crush like having the same drink like you, listen to your favourite songs after you introduce to her are NOTHING. Maybe she is just plain thirsty and your favourite songs are really nice.Do not take them seriously. If you want to know whether she has crushed on you, the best thing to do is ASK HER.

People who believe in signs,dreams and many many more will have hard time to move on. Come on people,you are wasting your time just to hold back just because of those things. Those things are meaningless. You are the one who give meaning to them and you are the one will suffer next.

You can start believe in your dreams as signs from God when you are already become saints in religion.I am lazy want to talk about that because I am not at that level. Oh,this point of view can be applied in many fields accept in religion.Religion is something deep in meaning. Laymen won't understand unless you have reached the level required.

It is the time for me to sleep. Good night my grandchildren..bye2

Friday, August 12, 2011

They are bigger now

These two birds are raised from young. They are so attach to me and behave like kids. I often take them out in the evening. Whenever I turn on the faucet, they will come down from the tree and take a bath. After that, they will fly to the tree again.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Random mind

There are a few things that you ought to know to ensure you live peacefully.

Never go to a barber shop in the afternoon unless you are ready to know what the barber eats for lunch. The smell is strong until you can imagine what he has eaten.

Do not do exactly what people do to you. When I was a child, an old man did a stupid joke with me. He touched my wheener and laughed. Not satisfied, I did the same thing. The feeling was gross...EEEwww

Just do things that you think you will regret if you do not do it. Opportunity sometimes only comes once.

Before you do something big in your life, think thoroughly. When I do like that, even if I fail I feel satisfied.

Do not afraid to be hated. Well when you are being hated by someone, it conveys that you are standing up for something.

Do something because you want to not for someone else.If you do for someone else, you will stop doing it when the person is not around.

Hot tempered people often have bad thoughts about other people.

If you are afraid to lose it, do not have it.

3 people can keep a secret but 2 of them must die.

Songs amplify feelings.

Don't be attention seeker on the internet. Update every single thing that you do.

Insufficient sleep leads to uncontrollable behaviours.

If you want to hit like a girl, hit it like a big girl.

Recent song

reflects the past and gives hopes for the future

Thursday, August 4, 2011

You lie, I lie, and lie again

I am working on something. Remember about my mission to find a grey parrot where I met many swindlers? Got one of them who really tried to convince me that he was sincere. He tried really hard to make it as real as possible until I brought up a point where I wanted his lists of customers and addresses. Lastly he gave up and admitted indirectly that he is a swindler.
So now he is offering me a job. He asked me to work for him and swindle people in the internet. You know what? I will play around with him. Don't worry, I am not going to swindle other people. I just want to know how the organization runs. Later I show you my emails with him.
Oh by the way, I am enjoying my life by watching a Korean drama entitled "He who can't marry" via Maaduu in Facebook. It is a 2009 drama.I like it a lot. since there are similarities between me and the hero see life. Maybe many people do not like it since the hero and the heroin are not good looking but for me, I do not care. I like the plot. If you have time, try to enjoy it.(If only the drama is still available during your time).
Okay, I am going to continue watching. Good night, sleep tight. BYE~

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

It's the time

Good evening my grandchildren. How are you today?Today is the second day in the fasting month. The first always the toughest. I guess it is true because I was so thirsty when I woke up. As the time passed by, I managed to contain the thirst by not thinking about it.
Today I notice one thing in common for people who break with their bf/gf. Got one friend highlighted it. She gave two or three examples or people around her who have pets. For me? I planned to have a pet since last year. I am not lying. I wrote about it last year.
Now back to my topic, before this I made a promise to myself if I have a pet, I would treat it nicely. Now I have not only one but TWO!!!Both are birds. Let me tell you a bit about how did I get them. A friend of mine told me about a nest up above a coconut tree. So he climbed the tree to check it. Got two eggs. So we let them for 3 weeks to hatch. After 3 weeks, we went to the same nest and found out there were two chicks. So I took them as my pets. It sounds cruel and it is cruel. I kidnapped them from their mother. I feel guilty.
Now they are learning to fly. From my observation, they are growing healthily. I bought a new cage for them. I have to feed them regularly. They eat alot!!! Ya I feel tired but I need to fulfill my promise to treat them nicely. In the evening, I take them outside providing them a chance to know the world. They walk and wandering around near me. Tell you what, they are acting like children. They will move a bit by a bit away from me. One step taken and they will see my reaction. If I ignore them, they will take another step and look at me. They will continue doing it until I shout at them. So funny.
At night, I need to pet them on their heads so that they can sleep. They chirp so cute when I am petting them. I am just afraid when I am working later I cannot give the same commitment like I do right now. I will try my best to fulfill my promise at them because I have promised. :)
Sleepy already. Good night dear..Bye

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Hey,look at these

Hello dear.These are my birds. I will take care of them. They are still young, need hand feeding and cute. Sometimes they flap their wings to fly. So funny. I do not have names for them yet. Any idea?Ceh.By the time you give me your idea, I might probably dead.

Friday, July 29, 2011

Changes in plan maybe

I am looking for a thing that I want for so long. I have waited for a long time yet I still does not get it. I do give my best shot. Haish. Still cannot get it. I also change my plan twice already. You know, I do not want to change it anymore because even I change for the third time, deep inside I know I am still longing to have the first thing that I want. Crazy isn't it? Some people can just go on without thinking things that they have changed but not me. I will keep trying and thinking why I fail and what can I do to have it. It makes me feel a bit failure if I do not have things that I want. I have given my best effort to get it yet still fail.Arghh. Now I do not know whether I should spend my money on something else or need to wait until a person shows up with thing that I want. How long should I wait? I do not want to use illegal way to get it. That is not cool. I want a fair game. So I will feel I really deserve it.
You know what hurts the most? When I am waiting for so long and then out of nowhere got people who do not wait at all get it. =_=. It hurts but hey, that is life. Putting effort only increases the chance, not a guaranty you will get it. Anyway, I take my failure as an experience. Maybe it is not meant for me for good reasons.
Sleepy already.Good night.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Now waiting

Good morning my grandchildren. Good? You know, I am searching for a bird to raise. I want a companion when I am working later. Currently I am looking for a hill mynah. I want it still requires hand feeding because if I raise from young, the chance to be tame is very high. I joined a forum for bird lovers. I even advertised two advertisements about my intention. They do get attention by forumers there but no good news yet. None of them have what I want. I need to wait until miracle happens. Good things happen to those who wait but for me I am not going to wait forever. Everyhing has its own limit. I give the time duration until I start working.
Something happened to my ear. It blooded a lot. I went to see a doctor. She cleaned my ear. Tickled more than hurted.
Oh by the way, tomorrow I think I am going out to hunt other bird species at pet shops in the town. Who knows one of the shops has what I want. So I am off to sleep now. Not really sleepy but I do not have anything to do. So sleep is good.Good night.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

I need a new idea

Maybe you are wondering why on earth I have met many swindlers recently. You know, currently I am looking for a female African Grey parrot aged around one month. I sent my inquiries to many potential people who can provide me the parrot that I want. So as time passed by, I got many feedback from suppliers. Only 2 percent of the feedback is from real suppliers. Others are from con men.
How do I differentiate them? The real supplier will be happy to answer my questions. I ask about their addresses, the procedures and proof. When they can provide all those things, I can tell you they are 85% potential real suppliers.
Swindlers? They tend to drag their conversation and when you ask too many relevant questions, their answers sound stupid and out of context. So far none of the swindlers can answer my question "Can I take a look at the previous transaction records?" They start to give excuses.
Hmm...Now I need a new idea. I begin to feel bored with the question. I need other question which can give me thrill.
Oh. I also give up chasing her.I gave my best but obviously not enough. So I need to stop for awhile. Right now I want to enjoy my life by playing with swindlers. The rule is, as long as you do not give your money and your details, you are always a winner.ARRR...
Have to go know...BYE2

Funny creature

Yar.Today is so funny. I nailed one of the liars in the internet. Funny creature. I spoke broken English and he still understood me. =-=. Obviously he is not a native English speaker. If he was a native English speaker, for sure he would have reconstructed my sentences and reconfirm with me the meanings. Read from the memory 1 until memory 4 then you will understand. Sorry for the mess. I am a newbie in print screen thingy. :)
Oh,now I got another liar to nail..haha..bye2

My memory 4