tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12633796823583996962023-11-16T22:36:57.665+08:00MichaelThis is for u..I love all of u my grandsons and my granddaughters..By the time u read this blog,maybe i am already dead..but i'm proud to be your grandfather....yeahhh!!!AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.comBlogger278125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-42321991708000677822020-08-06T00:38:00.002+08:002020-08-06T00:38:09.212+08:00Sad parenting<div style="text-align: justify;">Before I'm going to sleep,well I feel like writing. First thing first, I'm indifferent regarding the changes that this blog has made. It might take sometimes to adapt. But hey, that's life. Things change whether we like it or not. So today in the morning while I was heading to my workplace, I stopped for awhile to buy my breakfast at one of my favourite hawkers. There I saw the hawker and her son whom I believe is around 5-7 years old. He shouted and grunted at his mom (the hawker) about something. If I am not mistaken, he had lost something. Probably misplaced it. It is normal for kids to express disgruntled but the way he expressed it and the way his mom reacted "oh he lost something" nonchalantly made me feel angry. Come on. He is growing up. He knows what is wrong and what is right. You should do better than that rather than expressing like it was not a big deal. The kid was still mad and displayed some early aggression towards the situation by the time I left that place. I am a big believer of "it is not wrong to whoop your kid if you have to". That situation was the perfect time to teach the way to express disappointment appropriately or perhaps instill some respect. Yea...yea I know some might say you don't have to whoop to teach kids, but rather talk nicely and explain about it. Well I believe that way was done by the hawker and it was not working obviously. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span> </span>I remember there is a case in my village. It happens to my father's friend. He loved his children too much and never laid a finger on them. Guess what? When the kid grew up, he wanted to kick...literally kick his father. Growing up without serious consequences when doing wrong, so that is the product.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span> </span>To my grandchildren, just remember I do not feel like whooping you but if I have to, I'll do it. Respect your parents. They are not your friends. Yes you can be friendly with your parents but at the same time you need to remember, they are your parents. Not your friends. You must know the boundary. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">Okay, I'm off to bed. Taaa~</div>AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-45040334038489163032020-07-26T21:49:00.001+08:002020-07-26T21:49:16.125+08:00Abandon me not please.<div style="text-align: justify;">
It's coming back to me slowly. I have been waiting for it for quite sometimes. Do you have any idea how long I've been waiting for it? Finally it is coming back to me. Yea it was my fault I lost it. It all started at the moment I lost the person whom I love the most. You know I am the type of person who will give my all when I want something. I will try every possible way I can think of so that when it is destined for me to fail, I can say I have done my best. I will ask myself if I happened to come across the same situation, what could I do to have my desired outcome. I always come to conclusion that I can't do any better so no regrets. But...this time is different. I did my best. I tried my best yet I still have regrets and sorrow. I can't think what could I do to improve the situation. I just can't. How I miss the past. </div>
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Dear silent readers, I know you read this. No, I am not depressed. It is hard to describe what I am going through. I do not know why are you guys reading this. Why?</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-3430593108536219462020-07-23T00:05:00.001+08:002020-07-23T00:05:47.599+08:00A little different~<div style="text-align: justify;">
Hi...we meet again. Not sure I should worry or not but as I'm looking around, I realise I am a little bit different from others. I do not really have the drive for something like others would do. I don't like cars, expensive cars, big houses, and many more. I think you get the idea. I am not sure whether it is a good condition being like this. I do not have guidance. </div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-50518015450696945442020-07-15T22:54:00.002+08:002020-07-15T22:54:55.883+08:00Weeks go by<div style="text-align: justify;">
Now my earworm has changed. I start to get back to my starting point. Relapse is the best word to describe my current situation. Do I like it? The short answer is no...the longer answer is nooooo....I don't want to be like this. I do not want to continue drifting. I am afraid that little by little, I am back to the starting point.I had sacrificed a lot to go to the front. I am not willing to go back. Sometimes...nah not sometimes. I always feel I am alone in this battle. I do not have close friends who have the same goal like I do. It is a hard battle. HELP~</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-67441613151134209222020-06-28T22:10:00.002+08:002020-06-28T22:10:20.133+08:00SuddenlyEverything won't be the same anymore. To whom should I go when I need advice and strength. You are gone, I know you are still there. I really miss you. You are so hard to reach. I miss you so much ;)AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-65919862301983321862020-02-25T22:05:00.002+08:002020-02-25T22:05:53.921+08:00Nope~<div style="text-align: justify;">
Good evening my dear grandchildren. Feeling good today? You know last week I almost drown. If I drown last week, things would be so different now. While I was dying and I knew I was in a deep trouble, I didn't scream or shout for help. Not really sure why. Maybe I don't trust humans that they could save me. Last week I noticed several things. Before that you must know that I nowadays I don't really like to socialize like I used to when I was young. So last week was actually the first time in almost 3 years I went out with my colleagues. We did an activity together. Then I noticed why I put my distance with others. The topics that intrigued them weren't really my cup of tea. I am not saying I am a good person or they are inferior, but it was just pure boredom. Talked about getting a second wife, women, and made fun of others. I am too old for that. Those topics are really lame. When I was there, I realised I didn't miss anything. Thought things had changed but nope. I am really glad I spend my time alone. I am not an anti social person. I really like to socialise but I am really picky with the people I want to spend my time. I want to grow and I love to have people helping me to grow. The problem is that kind of people are really rare so it makes me look as if I am anti social. Remember my advice. Choose your peers carefully. Don't do the same mistake I did. I had wasted too much time.</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-88507092317353968352020-02-15T22:58:00.002+08:002020-02-15T22:58:50.775+08:00From heart to mouth<div style="text-align: justify;">
Good evening my grandchildren. I'm under the weather for several days. Not really nice right? There is something bothering me slightly. I do not really know how to express it. You know even though I am an adult, there are so many things I am still clueless about. I am not sure how I will I react when the moment comes. My best strategy is to go with the flow. Of course I should prepare myself but I just can't think straight. Nowadays my mouth betrays my heart. I remember one day my heart said other thing but my mouth uttered another. Why did you betray me? Perhaps I just want to conceal the real thing for my own safety. Hopefully next time I will shut up for awhile, rephrase what I am going to say, then say it. I do not want my mouth to betray my heart again. I am just too old for it.</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-83607497487111447622020-02-05T00:06:00.003+08:002020-02-05T00:06:56.970+08:002020<div style="text-align: justify;">
This is the first post for the new year. It has been awhile right? So I watched a drama where 2 people meet each other after separated about three years. That situation I had been through several times. I remember one time when I met a close friend after awhile, I started to see things differently. Back then we were close because we shared almost the same point of view. Then when we met again, I started to notice I had different opinions and views. I talked less and less. Now I lost contact with that particular person. One of the reasons I put some distance between me and my old friends is because I think I have changed a lot. I have problems to make them understand my actions and my beliefs. They will not understand because sometimes my actions and my beliefs sound so unreal and ridiculous to them but believe me, my actions and my beliefs are real. There is a person I really want to know. How are you?How's life?How's your family?I am sorry. In reality I think I hardly have two words to say. I am off to bed now. Good bye</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-68590528333469107522019-10-20T21:50:00.001+08:002019-10-20T21:50:14.053+08:00I am drifting.<div style="text-align: justify;">
How I wish I will just wake up one day and this is just a dream. It has been too long now. I am weak to even carry myself. I need support and advice to keep me on track or else slowly I will start to drift away from my original course. This is the worst time in my life. I have no strong peers neither guidance to help me. It feels like this is a punishment. Thinking back, what could I do if I could turn back my time. Almost none. I did my best and I took almost every opportunity presented to me yet I am still weak. How pathetic I am.</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-80280827110652238322019-05-15T21:39:00.000+08:002019-05-15T21:39:02.706+08:00Durian<div style="text-align: justify;">
You know...I have desires to fulfill. Half of me says go for it and the other half says no,you weren't born for those. I think the other half of me is right. I shouldn't be fascinated by this life. Even in my dreams I could feel this world and this life are very sad. Humans are pathetic. Everything that the majority desired is perishable. If I do not want to end up like the rest, I shouldn't follow them. What makes me think I am unique enough to have different consequences when I live like them? How stupid of me. </div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-53315476360776428592019-03-06T21:12:00.000+08:002019-03-06T21:12:24.330+08:002019<div style="text-align: justify;">
It has been awhile right? I now usually keep things to myself since there are things that normal people will not understand or maybe my advice is not compatible to them. You know sometimes I imagine myself having everything in the world. A big house, lots of money and land, fame and every single thing that a human desires. Am I really happy with all those? I do not think so. Everything will come to an end. It will stop the moment I die. What a sad world. There are times when I look back at my past, and I always feel something deep. Like sad and sorrow. Distant. My past is getting farther and farther. I can't turn back time to re enjoy and fix my past. Even I could do that, still the past is the past. People around are getting older and older. I might lose people I care. Death is lurking me. This world is a sad place to live. </div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-32251058310297351152018-09-16T22:00:00.001+08:002018-09-16T22:00:32.555+08:002 months<div style="text-align: justify;">
It has been awhile since the last time I updated this. It has been more than 2 months I am married. I am still the same me. Clueless about what is going to happen next. Lately I am very disturbed with what the person I love the most said. If only I could say to that person " I have given up my precious, please...If you want to go, take me with you too. I have nothing in this world". I am not kidding. Until now, it still hurts. I am eager to be the best but I am my own enemy. And time is also my enemy. Don't leave me yet :(</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-72022789126364870032018-07-02T21:59:00.001+08:002018-07-02T21:59:59.023+08:00My recent thoughts<div style="text-align: justify;">
It has been awhile since the last time I wrote here. About 12 more days I am getting married. I do not really know what to expect from it but I hope I can do my best. This marriage gives me a very heavy responsibility because the name that I am carrying. I am not afraid of my partner or the life after it but I am afraid of myself. I am the most evil man I have ever known. I am afraid I would become a bad partner due to my behaviours. I know how evil I am. I do not want to destroy someone else's life. Hopefully things will turn out to be great and smooth. I am doing this for the sake of getting into the elite group. May one day I will be able to say " I regret nothing".</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-78931634851786380542018-02-26T22:06:00.000+08:002018-02-26T22:06:05.821+08:00Do not give up<div style="text-align: justify;">
It is funny for you to feel you lose something but you do not really have it at the first place. Are you kidding me? There are good people out there. Be strong! and start searching for them. My secrets and my past are very dark. Darker than the night. Be grateful.</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-56252126712801238092018-02-06T21:09:00.000+08:002018-02-06T21:09:08.848+08:00What's the verdict?<div style="text-align: justify;">
The waiting is killing me. I am nervous and excited at the same time. And I really want this to end as soon as possible. I can't really predict what is going to happen. Hey, remember this. No matter what is the outcome, always focus on the purpose of this thing. I am here not to fool around. </div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-62614048587979930732017-10-11T17:32:00.000+08:002017-10-11T19:12:02.151+08:00This evening<div style="text-align: justify;">
Tomorrow I am going back to my hometown. I can't wait to go back because I really need to recharge myself. I still remember when I was a younger, I waited for holidays with so many plans. Back then I was full of energy to travel around and to explore new things. Just say any crazy idea and I would be like "Yes, why not?". At that time my mind was like I need to do something crazy so that I do not regret later. You know, I never told the whole crazy things I did when we were close. I was afraid that you might have a different perspective on me. I would look dumb, stupid, and crazy if I revealed things that I did when I was young. It would be contradictable with the character that I portrayed in front of you. But now that character is the real me. I do not really have passion to try something new. I do not want to travel anymore. The moment that incident happened, I lost almost everything. From an adventurous person, I am known as a no fun guy. Even when people ask me to tag along to watch movies, my answer will always be "No, not interested". Ah...I remember two to three weeks ago, my friend and I went to a mall ( Had to accompany him because he needed my help), I saw things that I am trying to leave behind. I was like "Oh...so these are the things that I used to live with". Now they fail to capture my attention. Quite a lot of things I leave behind. </div>
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Most of the times, I have a hard time to pretend I am interested in the topics that my friends are talking. Actually deep inside I do not really care. Those things that they glorify are nothing. The things are not permanent. They will vanish in times. Can't they see it? Look at the people who used to glorify those things. Now they are dead and left behind all the things that they fought for and even willing to die for. Did they take those things to their graves? I am really not interested anymore. It is funny. Sometimes when they talk about uninteresting topics (for me), I purposely let my mind slip into my own world. I pretend to listen but actually my mind is not there. I am at somewhere else. </div>
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Nah, this topic is too complex to be described in details. I should not begin with it. Anyway, may one day all my wishes will come true. I am waiting for that moment. </div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-75196716257384015672017-04-01T21:45:00.001+08:002017-04-01T21:45:51.954+08:00Say NO!<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">
<span lang="EN-US">It is just
a cartoon,what could go wrong? In psychology, there is a theory called
"Familiarity theory". When a person is exposed to a new experience,
gradually the person will accept it as a norm. Same thing happens to society. Bit
by bit they expose the taboo elements and slowly our society will accept them.
Can't you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"> Can't you see they start to play with words? If
you learn discourse analysis, words are bounded into three classes. Negative, neutral,
and positive. Take a look at the word "homophobic". "Homo"
is a neutral word but "phobic" is a negative word. Derived from the
word "phobia". When you have phobia of something, it carries negative
experience. By calling "homophobic" to people who disagree with them, it subconsciously develops negative
image on the people. No one likes to be perceived as negative people. Slowly
people will think "hey, let's accept the behaviour or we are going to be
perceived as negative people." What
if we call the people as "Pro human nature". Pretty sure no one minds
to be called that. Can't you see? I watch a documentary on how the slowly make
the western society to accept the group. In early 90's, it was a taboo to be
gay. Instead of using the words "homosexual
or gay", they replaced the words with "queer" and the society
started to accept it. Enough of discourse. Can't you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Now move on
to the point "Hey, now it is 2017,we are not in stone age!". The
definition of modern life varies
according to scholars. Some perceive modern life as progression and development in lifestyle
with cutting edge technology and skyscrapers in cities. I prefer the definition
of modern life as progression and development in lifestyle also our moral (in my case religion and the
definition is not by me). Sad to say most of us only prefer the first
definition. Okey back to 2017, what if I said "Hey it is 2017,are you
living in stone age? Do you know that homosexuality can be traced back to
thousands years ago? Why do you want to practice ancient tradition?"<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Heh.So many
things I want to say but now I am too lazy. Okay I am going off now.Goodbye.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-65095637160204558682016-06-21T23:03:00.001+08:002016-06-21T23:03:19.393+08:00Plan B<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Can you see that home above?If I am not married,that would be my type of house.So minimal yet so perfect.In the time for the people strive for more and more, I am so grateful that I have been guided not to waste my time on temporary things.Maybe just maybe people would feel a bit sympathy towards me for choosing that kind of life, but actually I pity them for focusing too much on unnecessary things in their life.I can imagine my simple life living in that house,Yeap that's my home.</div>
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If one day my colleagues, friends, or family members visit me at my home, please do not be sad.I am happy with what I have chosen. The move is not be made due to my disappointments in my life, but actually I have planned it long before you guys knew me. I am inspired by someone's whom I admire the most speech.Wake up in the morning, be grateful I am still alive, and head to see my idol.Then go back to the house and rest. In the evening, I head back to see my idol till dawn and head to a place to see another idol to learn from him.Then I go back home to sleep.The routine is repeated till I die.Hopefully I am forgiven.Please wait for me at the other side.Just like what you have promised.I know I am not a good person but I am trying to be as good as you guys.One day we will be on the same par. ;)</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-12543981011367617142016-05-07T22:08:00.001+08:002016-05-07T22:08:15.374+08:00Animal<div style="text-align: justify;">
Good evening my grandchildren!!!Yes I am here.Okey I want to have a short babbling with you.You know I saw several times people kick animals because the animals begged them for some food.When it happened,I felt real bad for the animals.Regardless cats or dogs or even monkeys, they are hungry too.Why can't you just share some of your food?I will look at the people who treat animals with cruelty with hatred.How I wish they one day feel the way the animals feel.I want the people to feel hunger,full of expectations and I hope their hopes are crashed by the world.Then they will have empathy towards animals.Okay that is all.I have to read now.For the glory of farmer of course.Good night!!!</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-55971463390538731502016-05-05T23:07:00.001+08:002016-05-05T23:07:21.891+08:00What is next?<div style="text-align: justify;">
Yeay!!! I am writing now because I feel it had been such a long time I did not write. So many big things went by and I did not write those. Currently I am so busy with my study. Hmm...Two more semesters and by God's will I am going to finish the study by the end of this year. I start to think to pursue my PhD. Yet so many things I have to consider. I will start to have commitment, what I am going to do with my PhD and many more. I seriously do not want to be a lecturer because lecturers' working hour is sooooo long. I don't think I am going to be happy with long working hour but at the same time I love academic reading. I am not really good at wasting time like small talks or talk about football.hmmm..I always need something to read or do if not I would feel I was not productive enough.Nah....Let me finish my study first then I will make my mind.</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-54424143638416470262016-02-20T23:09:00.002+08:002016-02-20T23:09:56.095+08:00Back to December?If you want to go back to December,you go alone.I am not going back to December!!!I hate December.A lot.AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-24288237099679251662015-10-23T01:55:00.000+08:002015-10-23T01:55:45.768+08:00It strikes again<div style="text-align: justify;">
Hey...Do you hear that?Ya,those songs.They are back again.Remember the time when I killed them without any mercy?I killed them with full of hatred and vengeance.Do you still remember how long did it take to kill them?How long you suffered just to make them stop eating you inside out?If you still remember why do you want to resurrect them?Just why do you keep your guard lower and lower?Is it really worth it?Do you want to die for the second time?Remember the pain you had to go through.When the time you were half insane half dead.Do you really want to go against it just because you believe your instinct?Sure instinct.Last time your instinct also the one that drove you to the destruction.What should you do?Be yourself.Do not waste time.Go straight to the point.What is happening to you?Where is your confidence when you had the gut to even argue with the professors because you believed you were right.I know it is a game of art and you are not good at art.But hey,nothing to lose.At least you know the truth and you can stop having duels in your mind right?Heh...Okay I am back!Do it now or suffer like the last time.You know right the place that you always find your strength.So tomorrow is a good day.</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-24351433685460897312015-10-02T01:28:00.001+08:002015-10-02T01:28:11.386+08:00Sorry fish<div style="text-align: justify;">
When I am fishing I only search for Barramundi and Snapper because they have good fighting spirit and worth my time.They are very hard to find and sometimes I accidentally hook Puffer fish,Grunter and Croaker. Slowly I will unhook and let them go.Of course they will hurt because of the hook.If I accidentally hook them, it is always better not to bring anything home rather than wasting their lives.I am not being ungrateful but it is because I know I won't eat them.By the way,I am not a fisherman,I have other important thing to do.I go fishing during my leisure time.</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-43460869404125073832015-09-29T12:25:00.003+08:002015-09-29T12:25:35.179+08:00I am old<div style="text-align: justify;">
Good morning!!!Oh wait...nope...It is afternoon so good afternoon!!!So how are you my grandchildren?Good?I watched a video about a family was having family time.The son drew a picture of his house with a small hut behind it.The father asked the son to whom did it belong to and the son replied"it is yours just like you are doing to your father".Such a heart breaking story right?Teettt...For me, in my point of view I do not think so.Remember this my grandchildren.If one day you find out that I am living in a small hut do not be sad neither remorse.I choose that way.There will be time when I feel everything I have is nothing.I really want to isolate myself in a small hut,maybe far away from people.I want to remember my death and the life after it.Actually my I want to start living that kind of life now but thinking maybe I have responsibilities lying ahead, I need to postpone it.The key word here is postpone.I feel comfortable living with just enough.A line that always ties me is "Take what you need,not what you desire".If I follow my desire,it is endless.What for I desire things which are not permanent?Sooner or later I am going to leave everything behind.It is always a good decision to take what you just need.Greedy and glory drive you to drain.To achieve the feeling of "Yup I have enough" is not an easy task.You need to train and go through a lot.Only few people have the feeling of sufficient of what they have.When you have that feeling,you start to give more and automatically you slowly realise about the reality of this life.The world has teeth and your life is short.Very short indeed.You will feel that you have nothing and you will start to be humble and always appreciate small little things.Grateful and kindness gradually come along.Hear this my grandchildren.Find a person who can lead you to the absolute truth.When you have found him,never let him go.Okay maybe you do not understand now but I am sure one day you will.Pray my grandchildren.May God bless you with His kindness.That is all.Bye bye</div>
AdFahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03504568851252153717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1263379682358399696.post-68573179117662420362015-09-14T23:14:00.000+08:002015-11-16T01:26:05.660+08:00Peekebo<div style="text-align: justify;">
Good evening my dear grandchildren.Actually I have a heavy topic to tell you but I am too busy right now.So I am telling you a bit about my current study.This is my third semester of my master year.I keep asking over and over to myself why am I doing this master.The answer keeps changing but the most prominent answer is I am bored and I need to exercise my brain.Sounds a bit cocky but really that is the truth.I remember the time when I had nothing better to do I started to find problem and solution.I remember I started to learn how to hack things,thinking about committing a perfect crime and some other illegal activities.To save myself,I channel my excessive energy to something legal and makes me grow.It is fun but sometimes quite stressful.I need to balance my life.I am taking a very heavy subject this semester.It is an elective subject.I need to read 2-4 journals per week.A lot!!!The journals are so lengthy. Arghhh...It even consumes my time to play online game.Anyway I learn a lot from the journals I read.Oh ya,I got a riddle for you.What will happen if...Think...10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...Time's up...Nothing will happen.I am off to bed reading a journal.Hahaha...Normal human being would read a book to sleep,I read an academic journal to sleep.How do you like it?You just don't.Believe me.Lulz</div>
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