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Sunday, September 28, 2014

My next move

What would you get when you revisit the old memories?Pain.I am not really wise revisit my old memories.Songs,pictures,videos make me remember every single thing that I want to forget.How stupid I am to revisit the old memories.I am sorry about everything that I did back then.To all of you.I am now a better person than before.After thinking deeply as usual I found out that I am always better on my own.Perhaps I do not have luck to share things which are mine.So what are my plans?Finishing my master and then I am going to pursue my study to higher level.With this so much time I think I have no problem to complete both of them in 7 years.I am worried if I have nothing to fight for.I will start to do stupid things if I have so much free time.That's why I need to preoccupy myself.
By the way,I need to learn saying the right things in the right manner.I do not think the way I said things before was rude but some people could not accept it.I just stating the facts but some people feel offended.I need to follow my idol.He said the right things according to the people's level.I need to learn from him but the problem is he's dead now.I only can read about his history from the book.I don't think normal people could understand the way I think because I am not normal.Few people will understand and trust me but to find those few is really hard.If I don't find one of them I will have to travel alone.I am so sleepy right now.See you again.I hope you have the chance to read this.I love you so much my grandchildren.

Friday, September 12, 2014

I knew it

Hi my grandchildren.It has been awhile right?Do you miss me?There are so many things I want to tell you.My life has changed so much.I am not sure whether I am happy or not with the changes.First of all is I'm pursuing my study to higher level.I want to make a difference in my life.Everyday I spend 2 hours to study.It is indeed the biggest thing in my life since during my school days up until my degree years I never be this dedicated.I do not want to repeat the same mistakes I did when I was younger than today.Oh about my half side.I still do not find luck in it.Perhaps you wont be able to read this since your existence is not possible in this situation.Why am I feel heart broken more than the other half of me?The other half of me is the one who made the problem but I feel the pain more.Okay enough of talking about it.I cannot wait going back to my hometown and do what I do best.Where do I see myself in the next 5 years?A very tough question.I want to leave my current job and find some other challenging job.I am easily feel bored doing the same routine everyday.I also want to travel the world.Seeing new things and learn from them.I really want to go to New Zealand.The country is so beautiful.I do not mind travelling alone.Hey,I am so sleepy now.I should go to bed.See you again next time.Good night.