Hello my grandchildren.I was sleeping just now and suddenly I woke up because I heard a song which reminds me so many things in the past.Yea I have the habit listening to song while I am about to sleep.It calms me down and makes me think about my dreams.There are two powerful things which are very effective to take you to the past.Smell and song.I prefer keeping my history in songs.Through songs,they convey the right words and feelings.The melody tells you the feelings.The lyrics tell the story.I usually judge people to see whether they are happy or sad through songs they listen.And in some cases,I measure their intelligence too.It has been 11 days I left you.You were one of my biggest mistakes in my life.But I am proud to make the mistake because I learn something from you.Come to think that,I was so stupid to put myself in that situation when I was young.I put so much effort to make the mistake.Now I have to bare the consequences.I am matured enough to face the world without you.
It is kind of funny though when more and more people are complete,but I am here still fitting myself finding the way to feel complete.Perhaps the missing piece of me never ever exist.I need to complete myself.I am afraid I will hurt other people again just like I used to when I was trying to find the missing piece.When you are in the state of mine,you will realise the world is insufficient to offer you the satisfaction.You begin to wonder.You will try to find the missing piece in other things.
People change.It cannot be denied but the changes maybe lead the for better or worse.I see some have changed for better and some changed to worse.Frankly speaking,I do not know what I want.I seem to have the unsatisfied feelings inside of me but I do not know why it happens.
One thing I learn is you can run but it will haunt you from time to time.Okay,enough of my deep expression.Now back to normal life.
I think I want to reward myself because I have left you for 11 days.The reward should not be mentioned but the result will be visible to others.
To those people that I have hurt,I am very sorry.I really am.Sometimes I wish I could turn back time so that I could make things right.I would kick the young me and tell him not to do all those stupid things.
Okay,I am sleepy right now.I am off to bed.See you again.Do take care of yourself.Till then,bye2