Realise this

Good evening my grandchildren.It weird for me to write to you in the evening.Now let's talk about something heavy.About life.Life is short.I remember when I was young,around 7-8 years old,I started to realise how short our lives are.Yea,since I was little I started to feel time flies so fast.Around 9-10 years old,I started to see life differently.What's the point of having things which are not permanent?Whenever I saw people who were preoccupied with the world,I felt disgusted and sympathy towards them.The world is an endless race.You cant stop once you are in the race.Once you are rich,you want to get richer.Listen to me.Take things that you need,don't take what you want.Your desire is infinite.Now after meeting a person who can show me the way to control myself from the endless world's temptation,I feel a bit calm. The problem is finding a spouse who has the same point of view with me.People that I come across are all the same.They follow their infinite desire.Glory,gospel,girl for men.People are after other people's praises.They feel good as if they own the effort and everything till they think they deserve the praises.Oh...Be careful with it my grandchildren.Hunting for glory,praises and gospel will lead you to the most lowest life.You are here not for all those things.Back to your creator.I am telling you and reminding myself.Once you are preoccupied with the world,you will feel as if you are going to be alive forever.And then,snap!!!Your life has been taken back by the creator.You are back to the form of your first stage of life.Poor and helpless.That's what we are.That's all from me.Take care yea.Bye2

Random

Ah suddenly the past starts to haunt me.Why brain?Why now?I think I am a little bit tired or perhaps that what happens if I do not have any better thing to do. By the way I have another paper for my first semester of master years.Suppose this is the time I should rest and sleep to regain my energy.I tried not to think about it,oh ya come to think that last week I met a person who brought the past of me to my attention.If he could just know me what I am now that would be great.Life is short and I have a very long journey to make.I have wasted 27 years of my life by doing nothing now I think I should make a move.No it is not about my future,it is way beyond that.The problem is not everyone can advice me about things I should do and must do.You are far away and I am here a bit lost.I'm heading to bed now.See you later my grandchildren.

A bit of me

Yea tomorrow I am going back to my hometown. I can't wait to do things that I enjoy doing. You know since I was a kid there are things that I keep doing them till I grow up. I come from a village setting environment so I grew in that environment. Enjoy doing dirty things for some but for me they are fun. Fishing, playing in mud, hunting birds all those things entertain me till this moment. Can't wait to do things together with my friends. Sometimes I am not sure whether we are brave or just plain stupid. Now I am trying to finish up my assignments so that we can enjoy ourselves later. I am pretty sure you guys will not read this but hey that's my point of writing this. I do not like people who are closely related to me know what is going on in my mind. I am secretive. Oh by the way, I learnt a lot of new things. The problem is I do not know with whom should I share my new knowledge. People around me here are not really appreciate the knowledge that I just learnt. That is so sad. I hope I will find someone who really appreciate what I've learnt even though the knowledge is not significant for her but she is willing to listen to widen up her knowledge. I love new knowledge even I do not really will use it but it is for the sake of expanding and enrich myself. I am off to bed now. Are you the one?Good night

From cat to New Zealand

Hello my little grandchildren.It has been awhile.Actually I have 3 assignments needed to be completed but since I am not feeling well I think I should rest and do something without require much thought.So here I am writing this for you.Today I am going to share with you my weird experience when I was having my dinner.I had my dinner around 7 p.m.I went to the same restaurant everyday and ordered the same food.Haha...I have this behaviour for almost everything.I will do the same thing and eat almost the same food everyday.It is not I am a dull person but just for the sake of convenient.So that day when I was waiting for my food, a wild cat appeared.It gave me an adorable stare and started to play around my legs.I hated cat but at the same time I wanted it to be happy.So I let it play around my legs and it started to climb my leg to be on my lap.I thought it was really hungry.I said to the cat ( ya I am a bit crazy because I always talk to animals) "wait for my food,I will share it with you". The food arrived and I gave a chunk of chicken to it.Do you know what happened?It didn't give a damn and started to stare and me.I think it said to itself "Do you think I am hungry?I do not want your food human". 

It stared at me for a long time while I was eating.I think the cat was retarded.After I finished eating and heading to my car,it slept on my chair.So the conclusion is the cat was retarded.

By the way it has been awhile since the last time I had my vacation.I should reward myself after finishing my master.I wanna go to New Zealand badly. This is my picture when I was in Japan visiting my sister there.

Now I want to go to New Zealand...

Motivation to myself

In three days I will have a major test for one of my subjects this semester.I am so lazy to study.I do not know really why but I started to feel it since yesterday.I have to keep saying the golden sentence to keep me on track.Now I will say it here."Do you really want to be a farmer?If you do then go to study!!!".Yea my dream is becoming a farmer.One day I will have a piece of land which I can build my own farm.Every time when I am tired especially after class,I will imagine about my farm.I smile and I know I am one step closer to my farm.Can't wait for it.Now I am going to study.See you later

My next move

What would you get when you revisit the old memories?Pain.I am not really wise revisit my old memories.Songs,pictures,videos make me remember every single thing that I want to forget.How stupid I am to revisit the old memories.I am sorry about everything that I did back then.To all of you.I am now a better person than before.After thinking deeply as usual I found out that I am always better on my own.Perhaps I do not have luck to share things which are mine.So what are my plans?Finishing my master and then I am going to pursue my study to higher level.With this so much time I think I have no problem to complete both of them in 7 years.I am worried if I have nothing to fight for.I will start to do stupid things if I have so much free time.That's why I need to preoccupy myself.

By the way,I need to learn saying the right things in the right manner.I do not think the way I said things before was rude but some people could not accept it.I just stating the facts but some people feel offended.I need to follow my idol.He said the right things according to the people's level.I need to learn from him but the problem is he's dead now.I only can read about his history from the book.I don't think normal people could understand the way I think because I am not normal.Few people will understand and trust me but to find those few is really hard.If I don't find one of them I will have to travel alone.I am so sleepy right now.See you again.I hope you have the chance to read this.I love you so much my grandchildren.

Maybe it is true

I currently listen to this song a lot.