It's raining now

Hi,how are you?Such a long time since my last visit.Now I'm back.Sorry for leaving you so long.So I guess now we will be leaving together just like we used to.I can see you have grown up.I'm sorry for making you growing up even bigger than before.I promise to take care of you because from now on I will regularly visit you.I thought I had found your replacement but I was wrong.I will try to enjoy your present.Well well well, look at you.You are covered with dirt.Come let me dust you off.From now on,I will always take you with me.Hold you tightly as if we are one.Be with me until my last breath.Sorry heart,you have no right to live.Go and disappear slowly.