I'm dead serious

Tomorrow I'm going to a camp for 3 days. So I wanna give you this song. It is an old song. Though it is not really nice yet the lyrics are good.

6 years

Yar 6 years more to go until I am fully alive. For now I am just half alive. I do not want to build anything or achieve dreams which I have have planned them since I was a kid. Yup I have been keeping many dreams since I was a child. I really want to fulfill my dreams badly. Why 6 years?It is because I hate my life right now. I want to improve my life.It is so unstable to start anything before 6 years. Lame people,lame surrounding,lame life. So what should I do right now?I just follow the flow but at the same time I have prepared myself to achieve my dreams. I am so happy whenever I think about my dreams. You know,when I am down I will always thinking about them. They motivate me so much. Can't wait for it!!!

Motivations

Hello my dear grandchildren. I miss you so much. You know, when I'm feeling down, there are things which never fail to comfort me. I want to share with you the things so that you will find things that can comfort you when you are down. The first thing is thinking about my salary. I keep counting my salary just to comfort myself. Then I start to budget my spending. I'm thinking about my plans. Ah...It really does comfort me up to 75-80%. Owh then I start to think about having my own room. How will I decorate it according to my own style. The comfort level would be around 75-80% too. The next thing is I'm thinking of having my own bird aviary. I plan to the details such as how big it is, the budget,what type of birds I want to put inside, how to decorate it and many more. The comfort level would be up to 90%. I really can't wait to have my own aviary. I think I want to spend quite a big sum of money just to build it because that is my dream since I was a kid.
I can't wait to get my job conformation because I want to reformat things which are very wrong happening at my workplace.

It is 2

Hello my grandchildren. It has been a long time isn't it? I was quite busy and now I have time to tell you something. When you have someone in your life, you will have some issues because it involves 2 people. 2 people when in something for sure they will have some different point of views due to different brought up and experiences. So what can you do? You need to tolerate and adapt yourself. Many people do it wrong when only one side does it. You have to respect and give credit to your spouse when he or she tolerates with you. It is something big you know when your spouse tolerates with you and as I said before you also need to play your part. Do not abuse it because when it happens, it only benefits one party. Relationship is about two people being happy together.

Oh, when you are angry or you have some misunderstandings, it is always better not to raise your voice or dominate the talk. It is so wrong when you talk without giving chance to your spouse to explain. Many people do it wrong when they only know how to talk and never listen. They expect people to have the same point of view with them and cannot accept if his or her spouse have other point of view. Do not brag the same thing over and over again. Slow talk is the best. Remember that.

You shall not bring up things in the past. I mean mistakes which happen before the current misunderstanding happens. It only makes things worsen and also complicated. The past is the past. It is considered settled after sorry word is uttered and your spouse change the wrong behaviour.

Always respect your spouse no matter what because she or he also has feelings. Treat her or him like you want yourself to be treated. Many people do it wrong when they want people to treat them right but at the same time they fail to do it. It is wrong.

Appreciate your spouse. I do appreciate mine. :)

Going back

I'm going back to my hometown this midnight. The first thing I want to see is my cicit!!! I miss him badly. I heard he grows naughtier. I can't wait to see him with his new spouse. I will train his spouse to be tame if possible. Can't wait to see him!!! I think he is missing me.
Now I need to pack my stuff and clean my room before going back. I am so lazy to do those chores. Ahh...If only I had a magic power where I can command my chores to be done themselves, my life would be perfect...
Now I'm listening to someone who is playing with a robot.The robot is creepy if you ask me. As if it was a real human.
Back to the topic, I am going back at 12 a.m. Why 12 a.m? Because the highway wont be jammed and hopefully we would not be stuck for hours in traffic.You be good okay when I am away.
On this coming Sunday, I'm going to my sister's place. There is a stall there with delicious delicacies...Ahh...I want to indulge myself with delicious food from Northern!!! I am sick and tired of food from Southern. They are tasteless..haha..
Sorry if I offend the southern people but you gotta know that your food is lame... You know, when I am here I eat just to survive. Not to indulge me...Can you feel the pain?
Haih...I need to pack my things already...Come and help me will you?

Hey there

Why the sentimental part comes to me right now? What am I so afraid of? They say people are afraid because they do not know.I always kill my fear by learning things that I am afraid of. I can't never learn the future that is why I am afraid of the future. Thanks for everything. You know, I never talk to anybody about this. I do not want to appear as a weak person. I always want to be strong. As strong as I can be. I feel awkward if I tell somebody I am afraid of something. Hopefully everything goes just like I've planned. Hey, I got a plan. You want to know what's it? Come closer...I will tell you...The plan is...haha..I'm lying... I do not want to tell you about it. If I am going to do something big, I make it as memorable as I can...
By the way, when I am not sure about something, I am a bit fragile. I will analyze every single thing to find clues about what is happening. That is why actions are very important to me. If I still do not have clues what is happening, I make my own conclusion based on past experiences. If the experiences are good, then my conclusion will be good.
Why am I writing this? I also do not know why...

Dilemma

I am in the state of where everyone is blaming everyone when bad things happen. I find it funny because I do not know who should I believe in. You know, I always try my best finding someone to look upon when I am doing something. That person will be my bench mark and I will do my best to be like him or better than him. When I have problems or encounter difficult situations, I want to solve something by thinking how the people I admire would tackle the problems.
Now, I do not have anyone I can look upon. When everyone is blaming everyone, they actually reveal their weaknesses and show immaturity within themselves. I do not know who is right and who is wrong. I do not know the truth. So what should I do? I start to isolate myself but at the same time they cannot touch me. I will protect myself from being used by both parties. I do not want to involve in lame drama. I am passionate about my career not politics or lame drama. I do not have time to participate in lame drama. I will watch the drama as my entertainment when I am bored. I do enjoy watching people destroying each other because of their ignorance. They thought they knew everything. I am too lazy to make things right because they are older than me and I expect them to be wiser than me. Funny people.